There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all
And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night
When i'm lying awake at night.

Deathcab for cutie - title and registration

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today.
I could sigh and say a million and one words.
And they wouldn't be enough.
..

I keep on remembering, things about him and me.
when we were...we.
When he made me laugh and always smiled at me.
I saw him from across the school quad the other day, our eyes met (From like 40 feet away.) and still I felt it. It's that connection, deep in your eyes. And it was an accident (that it happened) I turned around and so did he. And there was one second that we were linked.
And I turned around as quick as it had all happened and rushed to catch up with my friends.
And I really wanted to run over to him and ask "DID YOU FEEL THAT?"
Of course I didn't.
And of course he probably didn't.
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But whatever right? Ha no.
I saw him today at orientation for high school, he was leaving and I was standing in the line closest the door. I turned (without realizing) and looked at him for a second or two. I blushed and turned around and my mom asked me if I was ok.
It told her I was just nervous.
Lies.
I hate when he makes my heart do that.
I wish I had that effect on him.
I really do.
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I've been listening to lots of music lately, The Fray, Deathcab for Cutie and U2. It's fun, I guess. I'm just having this huge writers block/ editing block. It really sucks, a lot.

I'm working on not ranting to my friends and stuff about the guy I'm (inlovewith) in like with. So, I'll try and post it here.

It sounds crazy right? Love.
it's like..I'm in love with him
only I'm not.
because he doesn't like me back.
if he did then it would be love. I guess to me it's just got to be returned. I can't give my heart over to him because he's already got it. And I've got nothing for compensation.

And my friend said we don't know what love is. But I think that's controversial. she said older people know what love is but, i don't.
The older you get the more tainted it is.
Because you're full of the lies of what it SHOULD be.
Young love is better, it's weak and fragile.
but it gives you wings.

Feel no need to read.
I just need to speak it.
to type it.
to let it out.